Let’s take a step back in time for a moment… Jan 2010 here we go!!!
So there’s me… on a plane (well 3 to be precise) on my way back to Auckland New Zealand from 10 days in the incredible New York City… I had had an amazing time and had loads of time to really ponder if I was truly choosing to remain in the building industry… 24ish hours after leaving NY I landed in NZ… I wasn’t tired (I had managed to sleep for about 8 hours on the last leg from LA to NZ) it was morning… I felt different, but just put it down to the flying/jetlag/excitement of new possibilities… it wasn’t till I went to walk up my very steep drive that I suddenly became aware of the huge heaviness in my feet and legs. It was as if I had huge “goon” bags (you know the silver inner bags from boxed wine) attached to my ankles! I got my suitcases up the stairs and pulled up my jeans and revealed my feet, ankles and calves were so swelled up the skin was beginning to hurt if I squeezed it… Luckily we had a pool and so I went and allowed my legs to cool off in there for a while… then I tried to rest (because that’s what everyone said I should be doing!) but it was 11am and I was wired… So off I toddled and drove 2 hours to visit my family in Taumarunui… where I spent some time down at the river connecting back to home soil… the swelling went down after a couple of days and I didn’t think about it again…

Fast forward a couple of years…Summer end of 2012 and it’s hot… I’m now living in Adelaide South Australia.. I’d made the big jump just 6 months after arriving back from USA… I’m in a relationship and we have had one trip back to NZ… I look down and my feet are swelled up again… weird???? So I put it down to it’s the  heat, or maybe the cider, or maybe I’m not exercising enough… I go and lay down, put my feet up, wrap them in towels and frozen peas and hope that will work… this up and down business carries on for the next 4.5 years…

I know you’re  asking did I go to the doctor??? Nope… I followed what my body was saying, well sort of… and tried to figure out the pattern, did different things… and generally forgot about it and it wasn’t happening…

Jumping forward again to November 2015… I was on the phone to my friend who uses Access Consciousness® tools… and my feet are swelled up… I asked her what she thought it may be as she’s super aware and psychic and stuff! And after some questioning, I finally realised what was true for me… My body is aware of the Earth… and is holding the ‘Tears’ in my feet and ankles… wow that’s so cool! and so not so cool at the same time…

So my sweet body continued on and off trying to tell me the Earth requires some contribution… I did my best with what I knew to do… it wasn’t quite enough but it did give me some ease…

Then I went to Noosa in November 2016 to attend the Choice of Possibilities class with Gary Douglas… and while there Dain Heer spoke of when he’s feeling wonky that he does this thing of gifting to the Earth energy 10 times 123 and 1234’s … and it was as if a fog was beginning to lift… so I began doing that for about a week… and then as it came up I would do them but not as consistently… and then last week as I was re-listening to the recordings of that class I was reminded about awareness is energy… fat, (and in my case with my feet and ankles) water or fluid is also energy… and so began the questioning of how many awarenessess am I choosing, in the form of fluid, to not only ignore and also hold on to that if I chose to acknowledge them and let them go would create magical ease in my body that should not be possible but totally is a reality for me???

Then yesterday during the Access BARS® class I was facilitating one of the beautiful participants mentioned Dr Dain Heer doing a video about a process called restoration of the communion with Earth… So for the last 15 minutes of each of their gifting and receiving sessions I gifted to their feet… running restoration of the communion with Earth…

I could perceive, both times, that delicious energy flowing from all 3 of us through the Earth and simultaneously from the Earth back through us… it was beautiful to be a part of…Then the most strange thing happened the second time I was running it… There’s me sitting on the floor holding this lovely lady’s feet and then… My inner thighs started to quiver… Ladies, you know what I mean…. Yes just like that!!!!

And this morning… What a beautiful gift my body has given me… acknowledging each of my body parts in turn and my foot asks to be seen… and there she was!! Beautiful, flexible, not holding onto anything… and asking to be touched and admired…
and I smile.. I smile as I have the gift of a delicious body.. And the gift of communion with Earth in a way I have never chosen before… and I smile as I gain even more ease for me and my abilities… I am grateful for the patience my body has with me and my slowly gaining of knowledge and skills.. and I am grateful for the delight that I now have in exploring this new space that I be!

Incredibly grateful for those two beautiful magical ladies yesterday.. And for my body and I to finally letting go and releasing and gifting to the Earth all the awarenesses and energies that were being held in my feet and ankles..

I wonder what other magical loving kindnesses my body and I can be???